Right now for me, my reality is that my contract at my job is about to end. I could re-sign for a few more years, but my spirit is telling me that my time in the middle of nowhere Maryland is almost up. Yet, after applying for almost 30 jobs, I haven't solidified one position because most news stations are on a hiring freeze right now. So...I'm stuck.

I think it's safe to say that 2019 hazed the heck out of me. Adulting was most certainly the ghetto, and my impatience was even more ghetto. I went through a financial loss, a family loss, and a relationship loss all within the first three months of the year. By March, I was ready to throw 2019 away and sleep until 2020.

Since I was about 13 let's say, I've always wanted a guitar and to learn how to play one. Unfortunately, I settled for the clarinet in elementary school. But still this desire to learn how to play the guitar was on my heart.

Adulting has kicked me hard lately. It has its amazing highs, but in this past season, there have been some pretty harsh lows–with tough disappointments. But what happens when you're in a valley, and not on the top peak of that valley, in the low of the valley and GOD is still calling you?